it's raining again =(=

下雨天了怎么办 我好想你.....

love life by the end of this year? for taurus? for the sheep?

桃花就快会盛放吗?

i didn't mean to hurt anyone

it was already fishy from the biggining

when he said bout things

when friends started to treat us with queer eyes

when i got even closer to **K

why didn't he wanna say anything to me anymore?

why didn't he wanna make me laugh anymore?

why didn't he laugh with me anymore?

why is he keeping a distance from **K n i?

is it because **K is his bro~

if so why dont he confront me?

he said he'll tell me when the time is right who the 'her' he was referring to in all his posts

the 'her' that made him smile

that made him happy

that made his day

making the 1st move is all it takes

it's not my fault

in this battle ground

there is no one to blame

it is always on a 1st come 1st serve basis

no one is wrong & no one is right

things that are yours will be yours

thing that are not will never be

why cry over spilt milk?

i am human too

i'm eliminating my self from this battle ground for the time being

i aint settling my self down with anyone

we've got better more epic things coming up

i'm matured enough

i can choose & make decisions for my self

if **K can move gradually without making things too obvious

keeping a safe distance till it's right

why cant he?

it's been days since we've talked n laughed

it's been days **K has been keeping me company for hours

although we're all in the same room

doing the exact same things

why didnt he come n sit by me

or in front of me?

you wouldnt know

what if **K is just treating me as his best friend/bro

it's not like you dont know me

i'm a girl who acts like a boy~

if he were in to me

am i just a replacement?

i dont wanna be

sigh

can we just put this a side

come back another day to settle this

i am tired

i am tired

i am tired

i am very tired

i am clear about my aim

my goal

i want a 4.0

i want a part time job

that can get me a dslr by june

sigh

lets just call it a day

bath

brush teeth

change into PJs

flicks the switch

closes eyes

dose off

p/s : if i were to choose it'll be K

DRAMA DRAMA~

too much have been happening recently,

stpm in another 33 days =S

shit! i better get of the net now...

bye!

HELP NEEDED!

http://htcwildfirecontest.com/main/view.php?id=64

HELP CLICK ON THE LINK THEN CLICK ON THE LIKE BUTTON PLS =)

STEP UP 3!

THE BOMB

i dont mind paying n watching it again!

but next time no normal 3D for me!

it sucked big time i nearly wanted a refund for the 3D price,

but the movie was an epic WIN

so the next round will be at IMAX =)

the best 3D so far

i learnt my lesson for watching normal 3D

it was not much of a difference from 2D

the glasses where rather annoying coz it was too big n not clear enough that it gave me a headache!

so to all of u out there,

go watch it at IMAX!

i'm gonna watch it for the 2nd time during the sept hols =)

*signing out*

~.~.~.~.~. e.N.d .~.~.~.~.~

30 HRS FAMINE =)

one of the best experience of all =)

however, having too much soya bean milk is something not to do.

4 packets of soya milk n 2 packs of chocolate milk causes sugar rush!

trust me, everybody was high!

playing snake n ladders while blasting snsd

to be specific it was 'superman chess' & 'football chess'

19 yrs old having so much fun making so much noise

chasing each other!

the girls oso had a damn good time 'raping' the guys[2 guys]

who then escaped from the window of the girls room

every1 was screaming n laughing at the same time

looking like zombies the next day!

headache, yawning, sleeping at the stadium during the concert

despite the loud music n shinning spotlights

we were too tired to respond to anything

but when fish came out, every1 jumped n screamed like we've never screamed b4

high as ever when food was distributed during 3.40 when Nicholas Zhang came out

it felt like no one was paying attention coz food was more important!

damn right

everyone was more than ready when the clock strikes 4.

i swore i hated soya milk since the 4 packs a day thingy.

but whoah!

V-soy tasted damn good!

trust me it had more soya taste than any other soya milk brand as most ony had sugar as the main ingredient!

behoon also tasted good even though it has been sitting in the plastic bag for hours

anyway, gtg

there's still essays to be done

*signing out*

~.~.~.~.~. e.N.d .~.~.~.~.~

SIGH!

yes, trial is in a months time n yes i've not prepared my self for anything

i'm too tired

i cant cope

i cant this

i cant that!

someone pls slap me!

wake me up before it's too late

i dont wanna fail anything

tho i didnt fail any subjects the last time

but i wanna get more than a 'B'

i wanna get at least a 3.5

arggghh!!!

i'm just too lazy

maybe someone should never turn on the comp

cancel all social networks

delete MSN

or throw some food in n lock me in my room

and let me out only on examination day!

pls someone help me!

wait!

the only person who can really help me now is ME!

i'll have to get in straight that

even if i do not want to enter law school

i'll still need flying colours to impress everyone who looked down on me

especially you mom n dad

i'll never be as good as them

i'm just another useless middle child or rather burden that u'll have to feed till i turn 21

the choice was never given

but all the trashing n 'polishing' made me who i am now

i'll work my way to the states

i swear!

well,

a 'study-holic' needs a nap too

so nitez

*sigining out*

~.~.~.~.~. e.N.d .~.~.~.~.~

jokes

Inventions

Blonde jokes

NEW INVENTIONS BY BLONDES:

The water-proof towel

Glow in the dark sunglasses

Solar powered flashlight

Submarine screen door

A book on how to read

Inflatable dart board

A dictionary index

Powdered water

Pedal powered wheel chair

Water proof tea bags

Zero proof alcohol

Reusable ice cubes

Skinless bananas

Do it yourself roadmap

Why do we give a crap about what other people

do sometimes? Or what people think of us?

We love to have fun, in our own ways.

So why should we stop doing something

that one or two people dont like but everyone

else does??? That doesnt make any sense!

And we dont like it when people make rude

remarks from someone so why say them to others?

It hurts them and it hurts us! Whats That all about?

People are trying to be mean because

they sometimes need to put people down

to feel better about themselves,

thats mainly why we make fun of others

or put them down. so why cant we have

satisfaction in other stuff? That doesnt include

making people sad and depressed, and stuff like that?

Why are we making people sad just to make

ourselves feel better? If you really think of it

people do it every day sometimes.

Examples:

1. oh im better than

them because they do this.

2. they cant do this

as well as i can.

Yes this is a way of putting yourself

above others, when it is true, but they

probably are better than you in some way.

So dont put down others to put yourself up.

it does not accomplish anything, and that just

makes everything harder, when life

should be made easier, because people

would enjoye it more!

Dont do soemthing just for your own selfish

emotions in a way that hurts others,

do something that helps you

and doesnt hurt anyone else. There are

other ways, accomplish something,

Practice what you arnt good at make it so your

good at whatever it is that your not good at.

But dont take your frustration, anger, sadness,

depression or anything like that out on other

people. Its just Not Healthy for the world.

FEMME CITY 2010 AT KLCC

clothes, bags, scarfs, etc

the bff contest

aunty playing wii

the guys

there were live performance

fav deco of all

the girls =)

guess who we bumped into

y-kin....after 2 yrs

in the lrt on the way home =) [disgusting art]

~.~.~.~.~ e.N.d.~.~.~.~.~

it's been the 6th day since we talked

we just ignore each other like we've never knew each other

u think i dont care but i do

u might think that i'm still angry

yes i am!

i'm angry bout u not knowing how u differentiate between a lie n the truth!

i'm angry when people say her name

i'm angry when the way she try to catch unnecessary attention by putting other people down

n yet u still do not seem to realize her tactics

guys do fall easier for easier girls

who go all crying n weak

so they can feel a sense of macho-ness in their unmacho little self

they just rather go for easier targets who plead n beg for attention n 'sympathy'

wanting fame n getting through wrong means

yes that's her i'm talking bout

short

shapeless

small eyes

no personality

liar

faker

drama queen

i've never hated someone this much for this 19 years of my life

*signing out*

p/s : just wait n karma will hit u like a full speed bullet train

~.~.~.~.~. e.N.d .~.~.~.~.~

fed up!

no matter what u say, words cant bring me down!

i know exactly how it feels when someone stabs u in the back & throw shit to ur face

i know how exactly how it feels when someone turns their back on u

when u trust them in a way that they refuse to trust u back

i'm really disappointed that out of a few friends there must be an existence of such a 'friend'it isnt the 1st time

it hurts in a way that no one actually sees ur wound

it hurts in a way that no one knows

it hurts so bad that even tears refuse to flow for such a reason

to an extend that it's a waste

it hurts in a way that even talking about it hurts

it hurts in a way that the wound bleeds internally

it hurts in a way that i dont wanna go through this for the 3rd time

do i have to cry infront of u so that u can trust me?

am i not as fragile to u?

am i that strong in ur eyes?

am i not trustworthy to u?

are my 'stories' [which is apparently the truth] not as real as her's?

do u not know me enough to trust me?

or is it because u've known her before u knew me?

do i appear as such a person to u?

if it is so then go ahead

if it is so then get away from my life

if it is so then i no longer know u

if it is so then i'm on my way to my own path

i'm returning to my metal form towards u

cold n hard

n it's not gonna change

p/s : it's just a disappointment when u trust her instead of a thousand other of us

cheer 2010

a total of 1350 pics were taken for 2 days of cheer

but only a few of my fav squads

pics are currently not with me so i'll get it up when i have them

not all pics where satisfying

but i'll get them up anyway

i'll consider on getting a better lens for the cam so pics will come out better

i'm also planning on getting a casing so that i'll be able to bring the cam under water

for our water baby moments =) coz swimming is by far the fav pass time XD

until next time

*signing out*

~.~.~.~.~ e.N.d ~.~.~.~.~

Toy Story 3 =D

i cant wait!

who wanna join me?!

i've been waiting for YEARS!!!

so bugger off all u little kids!

since toy story 2 i've been waiting for this

& u weren't even born yet!

to all my buddies,

we must catch it on 3D =D

ADDICTION =)

Baskin Robbins =)

only on the 31th

anyway

since approximately a month ago our gang has been addicted to badminton XD

it is undeniably fun to just sweat!

without a doubt we are slowly regaining our strength on our arm

i'm not sure about the others but it's definitely happening for me =)

get up early in the morning

have breakfast

stretch

then badminton session starts =)

in stead of playing the normal single or double games

we actually really enjoy the triple players thingy

it's just funny to see someone guarding the net

1 guarding the left back

1 guarding the right back

but when the ball falls to the center

everyone just stares at the ball, blankly

then bursts into laughter asking each other 'why didn't you fetch it?!'

then the always answer 'i thought u fetch ma!'

& the always game is the smashing game

it's either they smash the net or smash the opponents

which always tests my avoiding skills

balls that hit me are 1 out of 10

any how

2 hrs just seem to pass to freaking fast

the games are over

get changed

the out of the building

but as usual

we'll all stone down stairs just to decide where to go next

go makan or go home

the games are getting less tiring coz we're getting used to it already

saturday game are like a must

beside exercising

it is also a very good way to build better friendships

p/s: the ketul gang rocks [inside joke XD]

I'm Officially Back =)

to come to realize my last post was like more than q month ago...

i also got a new hair cut...

which dudes start to call me 'man with boobs' =.=|||

with minimum make up

with slightly more make up + coloured cons

well basically,

first and foremost,

exams was on for the past 2 weeks n my papers ended today,

juz the 6 of us out of the whole form6!

cool right!

life turned hectic and my daily routine kept changing...

even for my birthday we juz had dinner blew the candles the every1 went to bed

now a day i feel like i'm a kid all over again..

not physically nor mentally,

or even my life style,

it's juz the bed time! i mean the time for me to go to bed not the time for me to wake up...

i know it does sound kinda sad

but life still has to go on right...

* daily routine :

- 4am/5am = get out of bed & into the shower

- 5.10am = do homework/study

- 6am = eat breakfast

- 6.15am = get my ass into the car n rides to school looking like zombie with frends

- 6.40am = reaches school enters class sleeps

- 7am = toilet session

- 7.20am = waits for assembly never stops chattering

- 7.40am = back to class looking like a zombie once again waits for recess

- 11.15am = recess =) <3

- 11.35am = recess ands =(

- 2.20pm = finally!!! =)

- 2.30pm = stays back for curricular activities or for study group

- 5pm = goes home tired like never before

- 8pm = dinner

- 9pm = homework

- 10.30pm = bed time [like i said, only kids go to bed at this time of the day =) which makes me a kid as well ]

..........

then the whole cycle continues

well the happiest moment of my week shall be during saturdays coz it's badminton session like usual =) instead of going on diets that will never work, exercising is always the best

it may sound rather boring

but trust me

with a bunch of crazy frends around

life can never be better =)

~.~.~.~.~ e.N.d ~.~.~.~.~

THO I DIDNT GET THRU =)

ppl have been asking 'how was it yesterday[9/4/10]'

when my answer is the same...

laughs sarcastically saying 'why u wanna know'

coz it is rather embarrassing to let them down coz of my own selfishness

honestly, i didnt wanna go for auditions in the 1st place...

i didnt know how i got it to semi-finals

which i also wanted to back out

but under all those pressure from teachers n friends

i still worked on my script reluctantly

editing day n night so i dont feel stupid when presenting it

sorry adrian after all the hard work n sacrificing ur sleeping hours just to help me

i truly am sorry...if u so happen to read this

i was already damn nervous the day before the semi

took my turn on the stage for voice testing

i really wanted to back out! seriously!!

i just felt like hiding my self....but shit happens and life sucks

i still woke up the next morning

bathed n get ready

soaked in sweat, cold sweat the whole morning

couldnt seat the whole morning till noon

my throat hurt, my legs trembling, my palm sweating, my heart pounding, my mind unable to focus....

i'm not going thru this shit anymore

it was more of a waste of time...

imagine what i could have achieved with that time spent on the worthless comp....

some might hate me for saying this

i know i shud be proud of my self being the lucky 50 out of the whole country to make it there,

i am, and i am thankful for having every1 supporting me

thank all of you who wished me luck =)

tho i didnt make it but what counts is the experience gained n the frens made =)

p/s : not going for this sort of comp anymore coz i have better things to do in life than wasting it like that

~.~.~.~.~ e.N.d ~.~.~.~.~

BOYS LIKE GIRLS ~GO~

Little change of the heart,
little light in the dark
little hope that you just might find
your way up outta here
cause you’ve been hiding for days,
wasted and wasting away
but I’ve got a little hope
that today you’ll face your fears
yeah I know it’s not easy,
I know that it’s hard
follow the lights to the city

get up and go,
take a chance and be strong
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on
don’t look back just go,
take a breath, move along
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on

Believe the tunnel can end, believe your body can mend
yeah I know you can make it through,
cause I believe in you
So let’s go put up a fight,
let’s go make everything all right
go on and take a shot,
go give it all you’ve got
oh yeah I know it’s not easy,
I know that it’s hard
know it’s not always pretty

get up and go,
take a chance and be strong
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on
don’t look back just go,
take a breath, move along
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on

Don’t wanna wake up to the telephone ring
are you sitting down?
I need to tell you something
enough is enough;
you can stop waiting to breathe
and don’t wait up for me

get up and go,
take a chance and be strong
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on
don’t look back just go,
take a breath, move along
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on

get up and go,
take a chance and be strong
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on
don’t look back just go,
take a breath, move along
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on
you can’t spend your whole life
holding on
yeah yeah

A PICTURE SAYS A THOUSAND WORDS~

tiring day but everything paid off coz we all made it happen

pictures of the day which spoke more than a million words

and memories worth keeping!

BEGINNER'S LUCK YO~

i know it's kinda late to post bout this...since most already know~

well....to begin with....

tell me should i be happy or the other way round

that i made it through the auditions n got to the semi-finals

i'm not talking bout singing or drama

but public speaking...

i actually thought of chickening out the night before the auditions

but yet i woke up early as planned

got ready n went to school to meet up with the others

gathered n boarded the bus n got anxious

during the 1hr journey

all we talked about was things to do with the pre-u council

tho i'm not a part of the exco but yet....

discussed bout a trip or to have prom

amazingly 90% agreed to have a senior's prom

a memorable 1

outside of school

we even discussed bout the dress code

after all...it is still a high school prom n there should be some restrictions to it

discussed bout how to convince the teachers not to attend =) [what all students hope for]

but sadly it was very very very difficult to come up with a proper theme

that wouldnt sound to kiddy

that wouldnt sound to pervert

that would suit our age & would sound appropriate

before you know it...

an hr passed n we're there

had lunch

then straight to segi

we reached early & got to see the early auditions

just a few of them

then suddenly came to realize that my phone was missing

thought of all possibilities n came up with a conclusion that it might still be at the restaurant

i must have dropped it there

tanx to both of my brothers who was willing to acc me back there to look for it

another 15 mins walk to the restaurant.....

asked around

amazingly lucky

they had my phone n kindly returned it to me

not mentioning bout the missed calls from adrian who was dialing to hope that some1 might pick it up....with a record breaking 27 missed calls =S [tanx bro]

and another 15 mins walk back there =S

missed the briefing but wasnt anything much near important anyway

got into the theater hall n to our respective seats

n waited for our title while other participants took their shot

it was 1 of those worst 2 hrs of my life

i couldnt pay any attention to those before me

all i hear is noise n words i couldnt put together to for any meaning

30 mins before my shot

i finally got my title

'poverty'

like shit

not as difficult as some other titles before mine....

couldnt remember much of what happened till i was done with my script

i wrote a 3mins speech in just a few mins n took 10 mins to practice

cold sweat from my palm wetting my script as i re-entered the hall waiting for my turn

when my name was called

i nearly fainted

my heart was about to beat it's way out of my throat

my hand were shaking quite obviously according to frens n family who watched

i admit...it was killing every bit of my nerves every second i spent on that stage

it was a relief when the bell rang at the 2nd min

stopped right before the 3rd min n earned myself a yellow card....

whooooo! relief at last for real

said good bye to my fellow frens who just like me...got a yellow card

thin chance of getting through anyway i thought n said

so no point waiting

got changed n went off with my sis

letting down of all that stress

we had our tea at old town

chat for near 1hr

we went off to pick another sis

on the way there...

my bro called to inform me bout the results of who made it thru

he was all happy to tell me that i was the only 1 who made it

*i froze*

*still trying to proses the words told*

wtf! no way! i shouted

that means more stress on my shoulders

as i'm the only person [a girl] to represent a boy school

like shit!

#$**&$#%^$&^(*^*(&(%^$#$@$-ed for another 5 mins

we hung up

the celebration for my 'victory'

we had a drinking session at ttdi plaza at 11.30 that night till 2am

and continued with mamak session n came up with another inside joke called 'are you sober?'

the day was tiring and stressing

but the night was the total opposite

tanx to those who wished me luck before n after the auditions

tanx to those who helped me

for the up coming semi-finals

wish me luck ppl

~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~. E-n-D.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~

STRESS LIKE SHIT! =(

although some people say

"it's juz ujian selaras....so what la...doesnt prove anything"

bt i still dont feel like failing anything...

it's because it is not full paper that's why 1 question can carry more marks than usual =(

arrggghhh!!

i still find myself in the relax state...

n i can feel that fever is on the rise....

wanna stay well for exam =(

fortunately....

frends around me...just like myself

are trying to do something to kick start n motivate each other to study

staying back in school for study group instead of going home asap to sleep =)

somehow....1/3 of the time of our study group was about gossiping =)

what we all enjoy most =D

hopefully we can keep the good work up...studying i mean not gossiping XD

anyway it's 0024 hr now....

it's best to sleep early...

so i better get going...

tuck my self in & zZz

nitez....or good morning =)

wish me all the best for the coming week of stress n exams =)

~_~_~_~_~ e.N.d~_~_~_~_~

为何？

亲爱的，到了此时此刻是该听时间的话，真的，坚决地放开手了！

对我的自私和固执，再多的坚持说要挽留着我，到头来始终都在白费你我的时间，你我的精神和你的心血。

或许是因我的过分要求让我自己都喘不过气来！

使我不知所措，才做出了这个残酷的决定。

单方面固执地认为你的好变成了你的弱点，你的软弱让我失去安全感，你的过于关心让我看透了你的不够成熟。

到了现在，都已过了半年，我还是无法面对你，因为我知道是我伤害你太深，使你在精神上受到了不必要的折磨和处罚，更加没面子去对着你妈。

我知道是我欠了你，我对不起你，三番四次地推了你的约会,虽然我知道你或许你只是想要和我抱歉，但真正该说对不起的是我。。。

放开我这个心灵上的包袱吧，让你自己去寻找一个比我好，会体贴，会体谅你的好女孩！

p/s:只要记住以往你我美好的回忆，把我当作知心朋友就已足够了 ，如果你选择忘了我，也是情 有可原。。。。

CNY =)

it's the 5th day of CNY =)
have been eating eating eating drinking drinking & gambling =)
sleeps in the morning & gets up during noon =)
life's like a pig =)
bt very very unfortunately.....i did fuck all of my assignments.....
i didnt even bother to open my text books to study =S
exam wil be in a week after CNY =(
i still know fuck all bout what i'm studying...=(
it makes me feel like shit bout my self =(
why i aint studying like how other ppl are...?
why m i still sleeping my hrs away..?
why m i still at this relaxed state..?
arent i suppose to be studying?

i hope that my promise towards my self will come true that i'll start really studying hard with
no more afternoon snoozes!
no more TV!
no more on9ing for more than an hr!
read every page of the news paper!
do all my home works!
sleep b4 12.30am during weekdays!
start exercising!
do not gain anymore weight as i m very fat!
drink less alcohol!
quite clubing till STPM kisses my ass goodbye!!
quite spending money till i save my first rm3000 to get a DSLR!
drink more water!
cut down on caffein!
get rid of the panada eyes!
lastly, apply more lotion!!!!

"promise me you can do it!!"


yes i know i can coz i know this will all pay off at the end of the day!
get good results!
get a scholarship!
get in good shape![not round]
get rid of excess fats n tummy!
get rid of pealing skin!
get rid of pimples!!
get back my pack!!!!
get back my glow!!!
get back my smile!
get my heart fixed!
get my 1st DSLR!
hopefully, get a puppy =)!



happy CNY ppl,
it's 2.33am,18feb10





~~~~~EnD~~~~~

2010 BABEH!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE EVERYWHERE!

I dont know why but it seems that cny is kinda early this year around that there is too little time for me to get into the mood!

no time for new clothes

no time for new pants

no time for new shoes

no time for new hair

basically

no time for everything

well any way there is definitely something this year that i wouldnt wanna get into the mood with which is valentine's day!

srew you... coz family comes 1st in what ever condition!

well it's 3 am & i'm still here right infront of the screen typing ,typing & typing!!

mayb it's time i should go to bed & get a good night snooze =)

bye ppl =)

happy CNY =)

~~~~E.n.D~~~~

SIGH!

就算再给夺我一个机会。。。

我还是回选择和你分手。。。

但是还是挺羡慕街上看到的一对对的情侣。。。

自己看到会觉得有点遗憾。。。有点不舍。。

但是到现在我觉得我以往的决定的确是正确的。。

我的不舍，遗憾，都不会是后悔。。。

虽然如此，我还是很需要一个人来当依靠，来撒娇，来疼惜。。。

希望在来临的恋爱的季节里能够找到好桃花。。

毕竟我还是外强内弱无助的女孩。。。

MAN are the cause off all the problem

Woman has Man in it;
Mrs. has Mr . in it;
Female has Male in it;
She has He in it;
Madam has Adam in it;
Okay, Okay, it all makes sense now...
I never looked at it this way before:

Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?

MENtal illness
MENstrual cramps
MENtal breakdown
MENopause
GUYnecologist
AND ..
When we have REAL trouble, it's a
HISterectomy.