THO I DIDNT GET THRU =)

ppl have been asking 'how was it yesterday[9/4/10]'

when my answer is the same...

laughs sarcastically saying 'why u wanna know'

coz it is rather embarrassing to let them down coz of my own selfishness

honestly, i didnt wanna go for auditions in the 1st place...

i didnt know how i got it to semi-finals

which i also wanted to back out

but under all those pressure from teachers n friends

i still worked on my script reluctantly

editing day n night so i dont feel stupid when presenting it

sorry adrian after all the hard work n sacrificing ur sleeping hours just to help me

i truly am sorry...if u so happen to read this

i was already damn nervous the day before the semi

took my turn on the stage for voice testing

i really wanted to back out! seriously!!

i just felt like hiding my self....but shit happens and life sucks

i still woke up the next morning

bathed n get ready

soaked in sweat, cold sweat the whole morning

couldnt seat the whole morning till noon

my throat hurt, my legs trembling, my palm sweating, my heart pounding, my mind unable to focus....

i'm not going thru this shit anymore

it was more of a waste of time...

imagine what i could have achieved with that time spent on the worthless comp....

some might hate me for saying this

i know i shud be proud of my self being the lucky 50 out of the whole country to make it there,

i am, and i am thankful for having every1 supporting me

thank all of you who wished me luck =)

tho i didnt make it but what counts is the experience gained n the frens made =)

p/s : not going for this sort of comp anymore coz i have better things to do in life than wasting it like that

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