为何？

亲爱的，到了此时此刻是该听时间的话，真的，坚决地放开手了！

对我的自私和固执，再多的坚持说要挽留着我，到头来始终都在白费你我的时间，你我的精神和你的心血。

或许是因我的过分要求让我自己都喘不过气来！

使我不知所措，才做出了这个残酷的决定。

单方面固执地认为你的好变成了你的弱点，你的软弱让我失去安全感，你的过于关心让我看透了你的不够成熟。

到了现在，都已过了半年，我还是无法面对你，因为我知道是我伤害你太深，使你在精神上受到了不必要的折磨和处罚，更加没面子去对着你妈。

我知道是我欠了你，我对不起你，三番四次地推了你的约会,虽然我知道你或许你只是想要和我抱歉，但真正该说对不起的是我。。。

放开我这个心灵上的包袱吧，让你自己去寻找一个比我好，会体贴，会体谅你的好女孩！

p/s:只要记住以往你我美好的回忆，把我当作知心朋友就已足够了 ，如果你选择忘了我，也是情 有可原。。。。

CNY =)

it's the 5th day of CNY =)
have been eating eating eating drinking drinking & gambling =)
sleeps in the morning & gets up during noon =)
life's like a pig =)
bt very very unfortunately.....i did fuck all of my assignments.....
i didnt even bother to open my text books to study =S
exam wil be in a week after CNY =(
i still know fuck all bout what i'm studying...=(
it makes me feel like shit bout my self =(
why i aint studying like how other ppl are...?
why m i still sleeping my hrs away..?
why m i still at this relaxed state..?
arent i suppose to be studying?

i hope that my promise towards my self will come true that i'll start really studying hard with
no more afternoon snoozes!
no more TV!
no more on9ing for more than an hr!
read every page of the news paper!
do all my home works!
sleep b4 12.30am during weekdays!
start exercising!
do not gain anymore weight as i m very fat!
drink less alcohol!
quite clubing till STPM kisses my ass goodbye!!
quite spending money till i save my first rm3000 to get a DSLR!
drink more water!
cut down on caffein!
get rid of the panada eyes!
lastly, apply more lotion!!!!

"promise me you can do it!!"


yes i know i can coz i know this will all pay off at the end of the day!
get good results!
get a scholarship!
get in good shape![not round]
get rid of excess fats n tummy!
get rid of pealing skin!
get rid of pimples!!
get back my pack!!!!
get back my glow!!!
get back my smile!
get my heart fixed!
get my 1st DSLR!
hopefully, get a puppy =)!



happy CNY ppl,
it's 2.33am,18feb10





~~~~~EnD~~~~~

2010 BABEH!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE EVERYWHERE!

I dont know why but it seems that cny is kinda early this year around that there is too little time for me to get into the mood!

no time for new clothes

no time for new pants

no time for new shoes

no time for new hair

basically

no time for everything

well any way there is definitely something this year that i wouldnt wanna get into the mood with which is valentine's day!

srew you... coz family comes 1st in what ever condition!

well it's 3 am & i'm still here right infront of the screen typing ,typing & typing!!

mayb it's time i should go to bed & get a good night snooze =)

bye ppl =)

happy CNY =)

~~~~E.n.D~~~~

SIGH!

就算再给夺我一个机会。。。

我还是回选择和你分手。。。

但是还是挺羡慕街上看到的一对对的情侣。。。

自己看到会觉得有点遗憾。。。有点不舍。。

但是到现在我觉得我以往的决定的确是正确的。。

我的不舍，遗憾，都不会是后悔。。。

虽然如此，我还是很需要一个人来当依靠，来撒娇，来疼惜。。。

希望在来临的恋爱的季节里能够找到好桃花。。

毕竟我还是外强内弱无助的女孩。。。

MAN are the cause off all the problem

Woman has Man in it;
Mrs. has Mr . in it;
Female has Male in it;
She has He in it;
Madam has Adam in it;
Okay, Okay, it all makes sense now...
I never looked at it this way before:

Ever notice how all of women's problems start with MEN?

MENtal illness
MENstrual cramps
MENtal breakdown
MENopause
GUYnecologist
AND ..
When we have REAL trouble, it's a
HISterectomy.

Confused =S

should i consider myself lonely or better off single.......

i dont know why but i sometimes i just envy those couples out there...

but yet at the same time enjoy just flirting around and mingling around with whoever i like....

at the end of the day i still have myself to count on and to seek comfort from...

but like stated before....i still do need a shoulder, someone where i can manja with....

however, all i need now is to score high in my exams to come...to secure myself a place in uni or better yet....a full scholarship to get my ass out of this country

tata & nights

gotta sleep my night away till tomorrow,

bye

After half a million Years

Yes..........
I finally found myself time to sit in front of the comp with no external disturbance from all sorts to blurkkkk myself out...

I don't know why but i just feel freaking lazy now a days =S

sleep at 12am n wake up at 5.20am everyday.....

brush my teeth...bath n all with eyes half closed...

tie my hair for 10 mins everyday....

get out of the house at 5.50am to wait for the school bus...

reach school at 7.00 am....

wait for recess then again wait for school to end [2.20pm]

get onto the school bus to head home...

reach home by 3.30pm....then takes a nap till 7.00 pm

wakes up for dinner n does some stuff...

gets over with home work....

then repeats the whole darn routine all over again....

i begin to feel the lifeless-ness in me....living everyday as if i'm aimless

actually, to begin with...i do have an aim which i still do not have faith that it will come true

i keep telling myself to start studying but my heart & soul just refuses to listen to my mind =S

this keeps me so frustrated that headache keeps on striking =(

i've lost the courage & confidence to speak not only in public but even for a simple speaking activity for MUET!!!! now i really feel shit about my self =(

i really need someone to motivate me!!! =(